mixed signals

we have been friends for a long time...never did it cross my mind that it will come to this... i didnt have a clue that i would have this kind of feeling for you.. it all came as a surprise.. before we used to be just officemates...we used to just see each other during training and other company related activities...our conversations were nothing more than jokes or work related matters...but things started to change when a good friend of mine left... you saw me crying and you asked if i was okay.. it never occured to me that it would change our friendship...

we started out by having coffee during breaks...then came in invites for dinners... or cakes....i never thought that our small conversations will bring much interest to me over the next few months... i enjoyed our simple conversations..somehow you made me feel that you were really interested in what i had to say.. somehow i enjoy spending time with you.. you never failed to make me laugh with your jokes and your stories... i like being with you... the never ending conversations about everything, the meaningless IMs we have that makes me laugh out loud...little did i know that these would all make me fall for you...

bit by bit, i knew that things were beginning to change.. somehow i wanted to spend more time with you... somehow i wanted to talk with you even more....these past few months have been a roller coaster...high points and low points.....everything was a surprise...it's like every day or every week i didnt know what to expect from you...

now im confused...im not sure if i should put meaning to everything that is happening or i should take it all in stride...my head says no but my heart says go...sounds cheesy i know... but im scared...im scared to know that this is all just fun for you and that you will go away... and just like that things will change...

i hope that this time its different...because i like being with you....