sunsets

i have always loved watching the sun set...somehow it gives a certain kind of calm whenever i look at it... i can never get tired of watching the sun set and as it begins to kiss the sea...its the perfect setting to set you in the mood to contemplate and reminisce. for one whole week, all i did was to go the beach with my ipod, cell and a good book at hand as i watch the sun set.. its the perfect setting... the cool breeze that touches your face gives you a certain calmness that cant be described by words...i have found my niche and i have found my own little place where i can be by myself, and that is by the sea..

It was the cooling hour, just when the rounded Red sun sinks down behind the azure hill, Which then seems as if the whole earth is bounded, Circling all nature, hush'd, and dim, and still, With the far mountain-crescent half surrounded On one side, and the deep sea calm and chill Upon the other, and the rosy sky With one star sparkling through it like an eye. - Lord Byron (George Gordon Noel Byron), Don Juan

The sacred lamp of day Now dipt in western clouds his parting day. - William Falconer, The Shipwreck

"My life is 92% perfect"

HOW PERFECT IS YOUR LIFE?

[x] You know someone that cares about you.

[ ] You have a boyfriend/ girlfriend/ fiance/husband/ wife.

[ x] You have your own room.

[x] You own a cell phone.

[x] You get good grades.

[x ] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.

[x] Your parents are still married.

[x] You have more than 2 best friends.

[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.

[x] You live in a house.

T O T A L: 8

[x] You dress how you want to.

[x] You hang out w/ friends more than once a week.

[x] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.

[x] You have never been beaten up.

[x] You never cry more than twice a month.

[x] Youre allowed to listen to music you want to.

[x] Your room is big enough for you.

[x] People don't use you for something you have.

[x] You have been to a concert.

[x] You laugh more than twice a day.

T O T A L: 10

[x] You have over 100 friends on friendster

[x] You have pictures on friendster

[x] You get allowance.

[x] You collect something normal.

[x] People don't make fun of you to be mean.

[x] You look foward to going to school.

[x] You don't wish you were someone else.

[x] You play a sport.

[X ] You do something after school.

[x] You shower daily.

T O T A L: 10

[x ] You own a car.

[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.

[x] You're healthy.

[ ] You've never had a cavity.

[x] You are happy with your appearance.

[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.

[x ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.

[x] You have friends.

[x] You have many inside jokes with friends.

[x] You know your parents care for you and loveyou.

T O T A L: 8

[x] You know what is going on in the world.

[x] You care about sooo many people.

[x] You are happy with your life.

[x] You usually aren't sick.

[x] You know more than one language.

[x] You have a screen name.

[x ] You own a pet.

[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs.

[x ]You don't have any enemies.

[x] You are happy you're living.

T O T A L: 10

Now count up the number and multiply by 2. Thenrepost saying "My life is __% perfect"

just something to think about

our life is the sum of all our experiences.....

lets get in on

one particular song has been stucked in my head for the past two weeks.. its a song from Marvin Gaye called "Let's Get It On". Quite a cute song with nice lyrics and melody. thanks to my very entertaining friends Dennis and Francis who did a floorshow that night ;) , this song made quite an impression...haha... nice memories of our Mimosa nights came to my mind.. imagine having to listen to that song over and over again the whole night while drinking and having a not so intelligent conversation..till now i cant stop laughing everytime i remember the look on everyone's face as the song is being played again.. i guess people liked the song so much that the guys still played over and over again the morning after.. hahaha... i guess that would now become the theme song of our group in the next few months... jude, our team lead even promised to send the mp3 file the next day to have everyone reminded of the fun we had in mimosa...and he did fulfill his promise.. he did send it to all pips! to give you an idea of what the song is all about, take a look on the lyrics below:

LET'S GET IT ON

Marvin Gaye

I've been really tryin, baby
Tryin to hold back these feelings for so long
And if you feel, like I feel baby
Come on, oh come on,


Let's get it on
Lets get it on
Let's get it on
Let's get it on

We're all sensitive people
With so much love to give, understand me sugar
Since we got to be
Lets say, I love you


There's nothin wrong with me

Lovin you -
And givin yourself to me can never be wrong
If the love is true
Don't you know how sweet and wonderful, life can be

I'm askin you baby, to get it on with me
I aint gonna worry, I aint gonna push
So come on, come on, come on, come on baby
Stop beatin round the bush...


Let's get it on
Let's get it on
Let's get it on
Let's get it on

cant sleep

i have been sleeping a bit late this past few days... 2 - 3 am would be the usual time na i would get to sleep.. i dont know kung bumabalik ang insomia ko or what.. well in order to be productive i have tried writing again here in my blog to stimulate my creative juices. after spending almost 4 hours surfing the net im still not sleepy..huwaahh, i have to sleep na... a friend suggested that i tried counting carrots ! i laughed so hard at the thought of me lying on my bed and counting carrots instead of sheep..i dont think its working..i still cant sleep... help!!!!

kapalit

mahirap pala pag may kapalit ka na... ang dati na kayong dalawa ang kadalasang gumagawa ngayon ay iba na..nakakalungkot malaman, pero sa kabilang banda masaya ako para sa iyo, sapagkat nakahanap ka na ng iba, kapalit ko.. alam ko na yun rin ang ninais ko...dahil ayoko magisa ka.. pero mahirap pa lang tanggapin na may pumalit na sa puwang na dati ako ang nagmamay ari.. ngunit nagpapasalamat ako na sa kabila ng aking pag alis ay hindi ka nagbago..ikaw pa rin ang natatanging buddy ko...

leaving

What is more painful, leaving someone behind or being left behind? Before, I thought that being left behind was more painful. Maybe because oftentimes I would always feel the sadness of having to part with the people that I have gotten to know. No matter how many times I have experienced it, it’s always as painful as the first time. I would often question why people have to leave me and why do I have to feel the emptiness left by that person. Somehow you get to realize the fact that things will never be the same and that person will forever leave a space inside of you that no one else can fill. Many times have I asked the question of “why do we have to get to know someone and later on be close to them, when later on they will be leaving us or the other way around, us leaving them? It has always been hard for me to adjust to changes. It almost came to the point wherein I have prevented myself to getting close to someone for the fear of being left again and being hurt. But then again I realized that I am not allowing myself the opportunity to get to know other people and establish relationships that I could keep. And that it wouldn’t do me any good. Before I would often think that it was always the one who is left behind who would have a hard time adjusting to the situation. Until recently, I have realized that leaving someone can also be as painful as being left by someone. That realization came when I left the company I was working for the past one and a half year. With the time I have spent with the company, I was able to establish a personal relationship with the people from my team and with the people that I got to work with. Work became easier because I had people that I was able to go to the gym with, play badminton, have lunch or dinner and oftentimes than not, spend our Friday nights out. This became a routine for me for more than a year and I have already gotten used to it. Making a decision to leave the company and pursue my dream of obtaining a masteral degree became a hard task. Why would you ask? Because I find it hard to leave the people that I have learned to love. I know that when I leave, things will never be the same and that things will be different even though we don’t want them to be. It is always hard to let go of the things that you have gotten used to. But I know that things happen for a reason. That the time I had with the people I have learned to love is not wasted. Just like what a friend of mine told me, life is a journey and that people we get to know along the way are the ones who make the journey easier.

steps

I was talking to my best friend a while ago, and a thought came to my mind. During our conversation, she was asking me how come we always have a hard time getting what we want and we can’t seem to have everything that we yearn for. I was thinking really hard for way to explain it to her, till I was able to think of an analogy. What I told her was that life is like a ladder. Our goals and dreams are like things that we have put placed in the attic or somewhere than can only be reached by a ladder. And the only the only way for us to be able to reach our dreams would be to take each step in the ladder in our own time. Our dreams are not objects that we can reach by merely jumping once. It is something that we have to work hard for each step at a time.

im back!

its been a while since i last had an entry here in my blog, its about time that i start writing again. i did miss posting my entries here and being able to read the comments of my friends. i hope that magtuloy tuloy na ito! salamat sa encouragement trina!

7 things

what are things you enjoy doing even when there's no one around you?
i talk to my self, read books, watch tv... reminisce about sentimental stuffs, watch movies that will surely make me cry, write in my journal, think deep thoughts

what lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level?
eating good food, watch movies, read books, talking to friends, creating accessories, yosi break, shopping

7 things that scare you.loosing the people that I love
death
rats
being alone
rejection
failure
not being happy

7 things you like the most.good food
the beach/water
quality time with friends
my family
my loving barkada
teddy bears
music

7 important things in your bedroom.closet
tv
radio
pillows
blanket
books
my kikay stuff

7 random facts about you.im not a risk taker
I have a chipped front tooth cuz I tripped over a chair when I was a kid
I love to eat
I like to sleep
I hate guys na mayabang
I love my family more than anything in the world
I love my brother so much

7 things you plan to do before you die.go to Greece
make sure to visit all the fantastic places here sa Pinas
learn scuba diving
go skinny dippin
join a traithlon
tell the special pips na I love them so much
organize a special gathering for the abandoned babies

7 things you can do.
sing
drink tequila and not get drunk! Hehe as if
stay awake for 30 hrs straight
cook?
Talk on the phone for the longest time possible
Sleep for more than 10 hours
Swim

7 things you can't do.wash my laundry ( allergic to detergent soap)
tell someone that I like him
steal someone’s bf
exchange my family for someone
be way from my family for a long time

7 things that attract you to the opposite sex.eyes
intelligence
maasikaso
mabango
daliri! (haha)
someone that I can talk about almost everything
good conversationalist

7 things you say the most.charos
di nga?
Tangerks
Shonga
Hay naku?
Ur so mean?
Ah ewan

7 celeb crushes.heath ledger
eric bana
orlando bloom
rob thomas
mark abaya
brad pitt
angelina jolie

7 people that you want to take this quiz.tweena
johnny
iking
gain
kat
kelo
lonie

the tale of the sinangag

had a tiresome day yesterday.. our househelp left and we all had to do the chores by ourselves... started the day by slicing almost a hundred pieces of calamansi which my mom wanted me to juice. damn, my hands hurt! thank God, i didnt get any wounds in the process of doing so.. next job would be ironing all the clothes. i could say that this was my forte.. i missed doing that particular chore.. unfortunately my body wasnt prepared for it.. my hands hurt and my feet hurt from standing up for a long time. but that was ok, i was glad to help my mom in doing the household chores. =) next, my mom asked me to heat all the food and cook sinangag for our dinner. i was really enthusiastic and thought that at least i would get to hone my cooking skills. cooking sinangag was fun, i put in a lot of garlic and thought of mixing a bit of java sauce to give it a different flavor. i really thought that i did well with my sinangag.. but unfortunately when dinner time came, none from my family even tasted my sinangag! huwaahhh! after putting all my effort into it no one even bothered to taste it.. my brother even commented that ala daw syang lasa..huwaaatt??!!!! that hurts! well, bottom line, since no one bothered to eat my sinangag, i consumed all of it na lang, sayang naman di ba if itatapon sya..gud enough reason for me to eat a lot pa..haha

i wonder when will i get the inspiration to cook again?.. =)

alone

why do we sometimes feel so alone, even if we are in the company of other people? i just recently watched Chasing Liberty this weekend. And a line from Mandy Moore suddenly struck me right in the heart. these are not her exact words but anyways here it is: "I am always in the company of other people and i am never alone, but why do i always feel so alone?" Somehow those words did mean a lot to me.. Yes I do have a lot of friends, and I know that a lot of people do love and care for me.. But then there are still moments when I feel that I am alone, that nobody understands me.. i guess people do sometimes feel that way.. maybe its just a normal part of life.. maybe there are certain things that only you yourself can completely understand and feel. being alone isnt completely negative at all. sometimes being alone can help you clear your mind and help you understand yourself better.. i dont really know where this blog is leading to, just random thoughts that came to mind...

such a crybaby...

i am a crybaby and i am not ashamed to say it.. i dont know why, but almost everything easily makes me cry.. maybe i am just so intouch with my emotional side that i always find a reason or something to make me cry.. i guess in some way it helps me release some pent up emotions, but i guess most of the time its just my way of coping with the emotions that i am feeling at the moment.. last week, again i cried for the nth time.. but not because i am sad or depressed but because i was so touched.. ur asking why? well i know this may sound mushy, but i cried because of a poem that my brother wrote.. until that moment when he gave me a copy of the poem that he wrote that night, i didnt realize how he much he appreciated and loved me as his sister.. maybe you are thinking, how come i didnt realize earlier that yes my brother does love me.. well just to give you a background, my brother is not that expressive when it comes to expressing his emotions towards other people, so for him to be able to translate into words his feelings towards us really means a lot to me...after gushing over his poem and having my parents take a look at it, i came up to my brother and gave him the tightest hug one could ever give and told him that i love him too!you guys may think that this is all too mushy...but its never too late to tell the people who are special to you that you love them..oh man, here i go again, tears are beginning to form around my eyes just as i try to finish this blog..damn, im such a crybaby!

speed of sound

i dont completely understandthe lyrics of the song, but i so like it right now....

"Speed Of Sound"

Coldplay

How long before I get in?

Before it starts, before I begin?

How long before you decide?

Before I know what it feels like?

Where To, where do I go?

If you never try, then you'll never know.

How long do I have to climb,

Up on the side of this mountain of mine?

Look up, I look up at night,

Planets are moving at the speed of light.

Climb up, up in the trees,

every chance that you get,is a chance you seize.

How long am I gonna stand,

with my head stuck under the sand?

I'll start before I can stop,

before I see things the right way up.

All that noise, and all that sound,

All those places I got found.

And birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand?

Ideas that you'll never find,

All the inventors could never design.

The buildings that you put up,Japan and China all lit up.

The sign that I couldn't read,

or a light that I couldn't see,

some things you have to believe,

but others are puzzles, puzzling me.

All that noise, and all that sound,
All those places I got found.
And birds go flying at the speed of sound,
to show you how it all began.
Birds came flying from the underground,
if you could see it then you'd understand?

All those signs, I knew what they meant.

Some things you can invent.

Some get made, and some get sent,

Ooh?

Birds go flying at the speed of sound,

to show you how it all began.

Birds came flying from the underground,

if you could see it then you'd understand,

ah, when you see it then you'll understand?

making decisions.....

decisions... there are certain decisions that we have to make in life. sometimes those decisions can be tough since it involves your long term plans and it may affect the people around you.. decisions depend mainly on what you want and what you need to do.. its very easy to say that you have already made your decision but its harder to make the decision itself.. people around you such as your friends and family can help you make up your mind but in the end, the main decision still depends on you..

i miss my friends

i miss my friends.. they are my comfort zone.. whenever i feel sad or i feel bad about something, being in the company of my friends always makes the difference! these are one of those moments in which i wish i'm with my friends right now. i wish that they miss me the way that i miss them...

pretty stressed out

hewww, its been a pretty stressful week for me lately. a lot of issues came up at work, and having ur own bday is not reason enough for you to be excused. sometimes i think of giving it all up, but then again i would always feel like i am a quitter. last night when i layed down beside my parents, i asked them why does it seem that i always get the hard job and it always seemed that i am always struggling. and my mom said, may be its because God is preparing you for better things. you just have to be tough enough to endure all the hardships that you are experiencing right now and try to rise above the occasion. sometimes we may think that we are already having the most difficult problems without even realizing that there are also other people who are experiencing more difficult ones. life's tough!

life's challenges

life's tough that's all that i can say, but i guess one has to always rise above the occassion and never let your self be pulled down by the problems that you face. but i guess there always comes a point when you have to let go of all the pent up emotions that you feel for you to be all to go on.. cry a little, you have the right to feel sad, but dont wallow too much on self pity for it will bring you no where.. pick up the pieces and stand up.. i dont know where this blog is pointing at, i just wanted to say these words also maybe to convince myself.